Last fall I stood up in front of a group of people and declared, In 2017 I will travel internationally for one month! Today I booked a plane ticket for Bali in December.
And this wasn’t necessarily going to happen…
I love traveling. I used to travel and I even lived abroad for about five years. When I travel, I feel free. I love the adventure. I love wandering through towns that I don’t know, getting lost, and then finding my way. I love meeting new people and being part of new communities.
For over ten years, I stopped planning these trips. Why?
I pretended that it didn’t matter. Every time my best friend would tell me about this travels, I would pretend to be excited for him. I made up that I have so much going on, that I didn’t need or want to travel. But deep inside I was super jealous.
I also had it that I didn’t have enough money or time to travel. As a leader of an organization, how could I possibly leave? I am needed! How will the organization survive without me?
I really got that these fears are so inauthentic. I have an incredible team who are fully capable of leading the organization. If I planned ahead, I could delegate tasks and make sure any loose ends were tied.
I discovered that underneath all of this was my fear of really having what I wanted. Somehow I decided that I couldn’t really have what I wanted. Maybe someday, but not now! I have been afraid of truly living my desires. Can I actually fulfill my dreams? Is it really possible?
I explored these questions.
I listened. I listened to my inner voice, my inner knowing that truly knows my heart’s desire. I noticed that the fear was still there. But instead being stopped by it, I allowed it to be my guide. I became clear, confident and courageous.
I declared this to people. I didn’t know when I would travel or how I would make it happen. But I shared that I would travel for one month in 2017. I shared this with many people I would come across.
Then, my life arranged itself around this declaration. I received my tax refund and saved up my vacation days. Now I had the money and time! No excuses!
So today I booked my plane ticket.
And now I get to live into my future of travel and adventure. I am joyful and empowered knowing that I can actually have what I want in my life!
And so can you.